As soon as I read Elizabeth Scott’s amazing novel Living Dead Girl, I knew that she was an author to watch. Then I read Love You Hate You Miss You, which featured another conflicted protagonist with a powerful voice. This is a great read for any teens interested in journal-format or letter-format stories, as well as stories about friendship and grief.
Dear Julia. It’s been 75 days since … well, it’s been 75 days.
I’m going to be leaving rehab soon. I’d say I was glad, but leaving the Pinewood teen treatment center means going back home and joining that family unit of two parents who fit perfectly together. The two of them plus me, the daughter they never wanted. My shrink wants me to keep a journal. He wants me to document my journey, and write about how I’m emerging from the darkness and moving into the light … or something.
So I decided that I would rather write to you instead. About how much I miss you. About how much I remember you every day. About all the things I ever wanted to tell you, but didn’t. I still blame myself for what happened, and a lot of other people blame me, too. Including your mother. I don’t think she’ll ever forgive me … and I don’t know if I can forgive myself, either.
My family and my doctors want me to go back to having a normal life, but I don’t know if I can do that. I don’t know if I remember what a normal life is. And Julia, I don’t know if life is worth living if you won’t be there to share it with me.